TENSION! TENSION!

Tension! tension!....mana tak nya....Sekarang ni aku di beri tanggungjawab untuk lead Service Account Management. Ok lah...pasal tu aku tak kisah. Apa yang aku kisah adalah aku tidak diberi orang. Tak kan lah semua account aku nak cover...mampus lah aku. Setakat 2 big accounts and 1 non critical account boleh lah aku tengok. Ni beratur account yang nak di handover pada unit ni tapi aku sorang jer yang nak buat kerja.

Mana nak tengok Service Desk lagi. Reporting Team lagi. Haiiisssshhhh... Bila ada orang nak join aku...tak kasi...letak unit lain...padahal unit tu dah ada 3-4 orang dah orang. So macam mana....nak kasi orang setakat tolong-tolong mana boleh. SAM ni perlu committed....arrrrrggggghhhhhhhhh....

Kadangkala..................................

Setiap manusia melakukan kesilapan, akan tetapi tidak semua kesilapan dapat di maafkan dan tidak semestinya bila di maafkan ianya di lupakan....

Kadangkala juga kita rasa kita cukup mengenali seseorang itu dan kita rasa dia pun cukup mengenali kita..... akan tetapi rasa kita itu melencong jauh dari sasaran.

Kadangkala kita rasakan kita telah membuat yang terbaik akan tetapi yang terbaik itu masih belum mencukupi.

Kadangkala kita telah korbankan segalanya....akan tetapi pengorbanan itu masih tidak dihargai

Kadangkala kita bertindak jujur....akan tetapi kejujuran kita di permainkan

Kadangkala kita tidak berniat untuk menyakiti....akan tetapi niat itu di salah ertikan

Mungkin sudah sampai masa berdiam diri, memendam rasa.

Mungkin juga sampai masa kita perlu bersedia dengan apa yang ada di depan sana

Mungkin akan gembira .... atau terluka

GOOD NEWS - ALHAMDULILLAH

My hubby told me that yesterday he has a long chat with his Director on his career path. What did his Director told him was, basically the Director at his office has the same direction towards him and where they want him to be. They want him to become one of the GM or at least the Senior Manager there...not bad...being GM at the well known company....despite this is not the first time he heard about this but this is the first time he heard from his BOSS. Before this he take it as a rumors. Anyway he has been a Manager there for quite a few years already.

Alhamdulillah....rezeki jangan di tolak. So if this happen (definitely not so soon) I told him that I want to have early retirement. I want to have online business that I can focus on.

Point is I want to have a wonderful life focus to my children, my family and work professionally in a non stress environment.

Frankly speaking, I love my Job but if nothing happen and they way people working is still the same...probably I need to think twice on the makan gaji.

p/s: I am not well....drowsy, shaking...no..no..no I am not preggy but probably low BP...and stress

I Trust No ONE

Its true...I TRUST NO ONE...in my office.....

WHY

Lately I realize that there is unreasonable internal politic happen. And without realizing that it's actually make the staff (including myself) feel demotivated.

And not only that, sometime people who you think close to you back stabbed you indirectly. There are so many "Kaypoche" people.... sometime make me feel sick. Not to mention that there are TAICHI people too....

There is no words "TOLONG" in this environment....when we help it become a burden and people will put a blame to people who actually help them out.

I've been working in the MNC majority comes from Chinese and I can last for 10 years. Why, there are very professional..... can give and take comment. Work as a team and not find people mistake.

Why make me write this (perhaps people who read this think that I am so childish) but the more I hear, the more I listen it make me feel sick and disappointed.

Someone told me that C has been asking around about me....and I have confront C to ask why there is a need to find about me and my team by asking other people. Why can't ask me directly or ask my BOSS since C is close to me. and C told me that someone B has been complaining about my team. OK...If it is true that B complaint about me....why can't B come and see me directly instead of go and complaint to C.....

Fine....being myself, i am not a hypocrite person, once I think that people back stabbed on me...I will show the unsatisfied towards that person.

So 1 fine day, I confront B...why not complaint to me directly why need to go to C....the answer is make so shock. B don't even complaint about me, but notice C always tense to be kapoche when B talk to his team mate. and even when I talked to B, I don't even mention C's name yet B can capture who do I mean.

That is WHY i SAID, I TRUST NO ONE

Aniq is SDARIAN today

Hari ni Aniq dah bergelar SDARIAN...pagi tadi, aku, hubby and Adriana memberi sokongan kami bersama-sama mendaftar Aniq di SDAR (Sek Dato' Abd Razak). Seawal pukul 8 pagi kami sudah sampai di SDAR....process pendaftaran berjalan lancar sehinggalah process membayar yuran...alhamdulillah

Kagum juga melihat pelajar-pelajar Sr SDAR, mempunyai sifah menghormati parents yang datang dan adik-adik yg baru. Kami dibantu oleh pelajar-pelajar senior sehingga sampai ke hostel seterusnya Dorm yang mana Dorm inilah akan menjadi bilik baru di rumah baru di alam yang baru.

Kesemua kami bertungkus lumus membersihkan locker Aniq, mengemaskan tilam dan meletakkan baju di dalam. Aniq dan kami memilih tempat berhampiran dgn tingkap dan katil di bawah sebab ambil tepi tinggkap biar sejuk berangin dan kalau kami datang Aniq dah nampak. Memilih berada di bawah, bimbang akan keselamatan Aniq kalau kat atas takut jatuh, lagi pun senang duduk bawah.

Setelah selesai berkemas, perut pun dah mula berbunyi, baru sedar tak lunch lagi dan kami harus cepat kerana by pukul 6 petang semua parents di minta beredar dan meninggal kan anak masing-masing.

Kami makan tengah hari di pekan kecik..ape tah nama dia. Lepas makan beli sedikit lagi keperluan tambahan untuk Aniq dan terus balik ke hostel balik. Jam hampir menunjukkan pukul 5:30pm....Aniq kami suruh untuk mandi dan tukar pakaian untuk activity malam sebelum kami tinggal dia.

Tepat jam 6pm, setelah siap semuanya, sampai lah masa kami mengucapkan selamat tinggal. Hati ibu mana tidak sebak, selama 12 tahun tidak pernah berpisah dan sampai masa yang dia perlu berdikari di Hostel. I was crying and he is such a good son. Dia ckp..Mama jgn la nangis, Aniq will be fine sambil kesat air mata aku.

Like it or not we need to leave him.

Malamnya terasa sangat sunyi, sangat berbeza - time makan dah kurang satu pinggan, naik atas bilik Adriana saja yang berlampu....memang sedih..

Dalam memikirkannya mata terlelap jua, tapi tepat jam 11:15malam aku dikejutkan oleh bunyi phone hubby. Memang panggilan yang dinantikan...panggilan dari Aniq....he sounds good...tapi lepas dia wish routine hariannya dia menangis. Normally setiap malam tidak pernah tidak Aniq, Adriana dan Aiman akan ucapkan good nite, sweet dream, love you and assalamualaikum dan selepas itu mereka semua akan salam aku dan hubby seterusnya kami akan kucup pipi anak-anak ini. But tonite lepas dia ucapkan semua tu, tiada kucupan di pipi dia dan dia x dapat salam dgn aku dan hubby.

Macam biasalah, once dengar dia nangis air mata aku pun laju macam air paip ler...heheheheh...dah aku pulak kena pujuk dgn hubby aku pula.

Itulah...sayang emak dan ayah pada anaknya